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Wednesday, November 25, 2009; 9:29 PM

New Moon (The Meadow)

Today, I watch New Moon. First day show. 5 pm.
All I could say about this movie is that it is better than Twilight as I still thought Twilight might have been a warm up/mediocre episode for Twilight Saga...
And then I think Twilight has one slightly better scene than New Moon >>
♥ The Cullens Baseball Supermassive-Black-Hole Scene ♥

Perhaps you remember how I used hate these Twilight Saga thing so much.
Even more, I had done some speculation about women subordination early.
I wrote the reasons down on as my early thoughts for my own semiotics research.
(I got an A from the lecturer. Bahaha!)

And then one year after the Twilight euforia, here comes New Moon, the second installment.
I personally don't really have an eye for New Moon the novel.
Then Dakota Fanning joined the cast as Jane Volturi. which is a big WHOAAA...
Taylor Lautner! And the rest of the cast definitely glued to my mind. As I always adore Kristen Stewart since she was on Panic Room anyway~

It's not the novel, not the story. It was the lines, the words, the music, the relations.
That's all! Voila!~

Today, you might think I'm just like any other girl who screams at R-Patzz, KrisStew, or Taylor.
But all I could say to you is, my heart jumped out of my chest for the poetic lines.
Another tacky romance I have learned to deal with.
Risk it all and I feel hypocrite when I say " FUCK MAINSTREAM!"

I've been quoting some of the lines (while watching the movie on cinema! Gosh!). And these are the moments: (-> copied from my own beloved twitter)

Bella you have been very gracious about us. -Carlisle Cullen to Bella Swan-
You just don't belong on our world. Bella, I don't want you to come. -Edward Cullen to Bella Swan-
Don't do anything reckless. This is the last time you'll ever see me. -Edward Cullen to Bella Swan-
I'm just sorry I let this go on for so long. Goodbye. -Edward Cullen to Bella Swan-
When u left and he left. You took everything with you. -Bella Swan to Alice Cullen-
I'm glad. The pain was the only reminder that you were real. -Bella Swan to Alice Cullen-
You apologizing when u're bleeding? -Jacob Black to Bella Swan-
You think I'm 'sort of beautiful'? -Jacob Black to Bella Swan-
Jake, you cut ur hair off? And u got a tattoo? -Bella Swan to Jacob Black-
If u're looking for something to blame, blame that filthy blood sucker you loved, The Cullens. -Jacob Black to Bella Swan-
You're not the first monster I met. -Bella Swan to Jacob Black-
I'm not the right kind monster for u? -Jacob Black to Bella Swan-
I got a vampire to kill. -Jacob Black to Bella Swan-
Alice. I'm alright. Until I'm alone. You're gone, and so is Edward.-Bella Swan to Alice Cullen-
It's a Jacob thing. You have ur own sun. -Bella Swan to Jacob Black-
You're about to cross the line. -Jacob Black-. Well don't draw it. -Bella Swan-.
Bella what is that awful wet dog smell of u? -Alice Cullen to Bella Swan-
I had to lied but u believe me so easily. -Edward Cullen-. Because it doesn't make sense if you loved me. -Bella Swan-.
You've given up your life for someone like us, soul-less monster. -Aro Volturi to Bella Swan-.
Waiting for u is the hardest thing I've done in 100 years. I swear I'll never fail you again. -Edward Cullen to Bella Swan-
Once Alice changes me, you can't get rid of me. -Bella Swan to Edward Cullen-
I will wait until graduation. It'll make it easier for Charlie. -Bella Swan to Edward Cullen-
It wasn't for ur benefit, trust me. -Jacob Black-. I'm still grateful. -Edward Cullen-.
Is he gonna hurt me? Read his mind! -Bella to Edward about Jacob-.
Jake, I love you. So don't make me choose. Coz it's always been him. -Bella Swan to Jacob Black-
Stop! U can't hurt each other without hurting me! -Bella to both Edward and Jacob-.
What are u waiting for? -Bella Swan-. I have one condition if u want me to do it myself. Marry me, Bella. -Edward Cullen-.

I find that New Moon (The Meadow) ♥
represents the unbearable desperation and irreversible pain ♥
Jess/ 25-11-09

Labels: movie, review

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Sunday, November 22, 2009; 8:51 AM

Obsessed

My Current Obsession:
♥ RED MANGO~ FROZEN YOGHURT! ♥

Owh! Forget it. The image above is more generous and intriguing. Here in Indonesia, they served the Fro-Yo like this, so effing small:

this is my favorite topping after all. Yes. Red Mango has the best rainbow MOCHI ♥ after all.

they served a lot of toppings from fruits (which I don't like), cereal (Honey and Coco Crunch), Kit Kat, MOCHI, brownies and Nata De Coco.. Four toppings I mentioned last are combined very good with the fro-yo actually.

this is random Red Mango store in the other side of the world. First I experienced tasting Red Mango was when they opened the first store in Taman Anggrek (back when I interned in Jakarta). Then, they opened a new one on Grand Indonesia which was nearer from where I lived in Jakarta Selatan. Also, the mall itself was such a guilty pleasure. Because you could buy Red Mango, Starbucks as well as did a window shopping on Zara, Pull and Bear, Forever 21, TopShop, and so on!

At first, I only bought the smallest one because it's pretty expensive!~
Next stop, I cannot resist to buy the medium one, with 2 toppings.
And now!! Large portion with three toppings was the only way to get me satisfied.
Oh my gudness!~

Now the RM store has opened here in my hot city Surabaya, Tunjungan Plaza 3 precisely.
♥ I always buy Large Strawberry Twist with double mochi and nata de coco... ♥

Anyway, first I knew there was a dessert called frozen yoghurt was when GoGirl! reported about PinkBerry!~ And now Red Mango and Pinkberry are still competing to be best known Fro-Yo store. Of course Pinkberry's still hasn't opened a store yet in Indonesia.

all photos are taken from the internet

Labels: food

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Friday, November 20, 2009; 12:19 AM

Meet Me On The Equinox

New Moon Euforia Hits LA!
(And I wonder why the hell haven't I heard about when the premiere here in my city)...

Gala Dinner - After Party

Taylor Lautner as Jacob Black (I remember him on Cheaper by The Dozen 2)
Kristen Stewart as Isabella Swan (I remember her on Panic Room)
Robert Pattinson as Edward Cullen (I remember him on Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire)

Elizabeth Reaser as Esme Cullen (I remember her on Grey's Anatomy as Rebecca/ Ava/Jane Doe)

Peter Facinelli as Dr. Carslile Cullen (I remember him on Damages as Gregory Mallina)

Jackson Rathbone as Jasper Cullen

Ashley Greene as Alice Cullen

Nikki Reed as Rosalie Cullen

Kellan Lutz as Emmett Cullen

Dakota Fanning as Jane Volturi (I remember her on I Am Sam)

Michael Sheen (daughter with ex-wife Kate Beckinsale-Lily) I remember him on Underworld Trilogy

(click each pictures to enlarge)

Labels: movie

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3OH!3 ft. Katy Perry - Starstrukk

3OH!3 ft. Katy Perry - Starstrukk

Nice legs, Daisy Dukes,
Makes a man go (whistles),
That’s the way they all come through like (whistles),
Low-cut, see-through shirts that make ya (whistles),
That’s the way she come through like (whistles),

‘Cause I
Just set them up,
Just set them up,
Just set them up tonight (then down),
‘Cause I
Just set them up,
Just set them up,
Just set them up tonight,
Then down

Tight jeans, double d’s makin’ me go (whistles),
All the people on the street know (whistles),
Iced out, lit-up make the kids go (whistles),
All the people on the street know (whistles),

‘Cause I
Just set them up,
Just set them up,
Just set them up tonight (then down),
‘Cause I
Just set them up,
Just set them up,
Just set them up tonight,
then down

I think I should know
How to make love to something innocent
Without leaving my fingerprints out,
Now,
L-o-v-e’s just another word I never learned to pronounce
How do I say I’m sorry
‘Cause the word is just never gonna come out,
Now,
L-o-v-e’s just another word I never learned to pronounce
Push it baby, push it baby,
Out of control,
I got my gu* cocked tight and I’m ready to blow,
Push it baby, push it baby,
Out of control,
This is the same old dance that you already know,
Push it baby, push it baby,
Out of control,
I got my gu* cocked tight and I’m ready to blow,
Push it baby, push it baby,
Out of control,
This is the same old dance that you already knowI think I should know
How to make love to something innocent
Without leaving my fingerprints out,
Now,
L-o-v-e’s just another word I never learned to pronounce

Comments:
CURRENT ADDICTION
Katy Perry added so much more emotion in this song.
Personally, this upbeat tracks is better with Katy's on it.

Labels: five right now addiction, Lyrics, Music

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Wednesday, November 18, 2009; 2:02 AM

Bad Romance

FIVE RIGHT NOW ADDICTION

Muse - Uprising

Taylor Swift - Change

Lady Gaga - Bad Romance

Adam Lambert - Time For Miracles

OneRepublic - All The Right Moves

Labels: five right now addiction, Music, Song

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Something Nice Back Home - Episode 7 "Wreck Of The Day"

I just can't remember the second week
I guess time fly so fast
Now I'm here I am at my home
The next day after the final report submission

I still think about the way I experienced things
So many first time I've definitely done
So many things, even my father couldn't have imagined it before
Up until this moment when I am alive and refreshed

Let me see. I lived in boarding house with three housemates, I walked alone thru dark where u could see BIG rats and cockroachs pass you by, I ate so-called Soto Ceker, digested food at night or dawn, I met so many new people who remembered my name but I still somehow can't remember theirs (sorry~ bad memories), people laughed at my accent but I laugh with them as well, motorcycle-riding, Busway and Kopaja, shopping and bargaining at Pasar Baru.
And the most I have loved the most were experiencing LIVE ON TAPE. My dreams and wishes.

I used to slept on about 3-6 AM in the morning (*cough.. dawn I mean)
I woke up at 10 and get ready for work on about 1-2 PM
The schedule sometimes drives me crazy
But I know I'm being part of a great team

Some time, when we were doing shooting, I messed up
I lost some shooting properties and I devastated
Although those problems were obviously neurological,
but I realized I was not at my best condition

Somehow I still think perhaps those months really grew on me
It might not be my best, but they're my favorite months
So many "Wreck Of The Day, on my everyday lives in this big city
So many which required details and attentions
Every day was new surprises and I get to know myself better and a little less alone

♥ 4th of August til 31st of October 2009 contained
my favorite mistake and my best fall down.
I learnt to trust myself thru walk alone at dawn ♥

It ain’t perfect, but it’s worth it
And it’s always getting better
It’s gonna take some time to get it right
- Guy Sebastian and Jordin Sparks - Art Of Love -

Jess/ 1.43 AM/ Surabaya/ Wednesday/ Nov 18, 2009

Labels: internship

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Tuesday, November 10, 2009; 5:13 PM

Something Nice Back Home - Episode 6 "I'm Still Breathing"

Now this is the first semi-poetic post about my internship and I might make it bilingual.
You know, sometimes words are better be expressed in more than just a language.

The first day, 4th August 2009.
I am new, I am refreshed.
As if I'm gonna enter to a new world, new chances.
I'm shy, sort of panicking.
I am handling property and I don't know the right thing to do.
I just helped them and I know and they know I still know nothing.
After the shooting, I feel glad and relieved.
I took a part on brainstorming after that.
I was too busy to hold the shinny pager in order to help my eyes stay opened.
Oh my God! It's 03.00 already.
At dawn me and my friend walks home and we just amazed by how we got this far, the first day.

Day 2, 5th August 2009.
I drag myself to bathroom. I bathe.
I think today might be an epic.
I love to do the shooting.
It's like I'm holding a scalpel, for the first time.
Holding an actual heart, the very first time.
Okay today I'm in charge of property again.
Wow, today is another excitement.
I have to go home and sleep.
I said I'm happy, this is my dream

Day 3, 6th August 2009
Today, the producer takes me to see Trans Studio VT shooting
It will be shown over Trans Studio Makassar's opening
I catch a cold. I cannot breathe and have to wear a masker all the time.
It is disturbing, as if gun smoke tries to kill me
I am trying so hard, surviving
I can't concentrate learning if I'm not well
It's 4.30 AM in the morning, whoa!
I go home and they told me not to come tomorrow
But I won't hear them, I want to learn

Day 4, 7th August 2009
Today I come at the office half past four
In this evening I supposed to lay my head on this uncomfortable pillow
But I'm still breathing and I have to go to the office
Although I just sit there
The very first moment I fall then every dream I had are scattered
I know nothing and I can't catch up
I still wear a mask I bought myself

Day 5, 8th August 2009
Today is my first weekend
I've got to stay alive in the next two months
I'm going home to rest my head a little bit
The night has come and still I can't sleep
Tomorrow has to be better.
It's a cut-throat out there, I know
But this is the world I love

♥ 4th of August til 31st of October 2009 contained
my favorite mistake and my best fall down.
I learnt to trust myself thru walk alone at dawn ♥

I found a place, so safe, not a single tears
This is the best feelings
-Avril Lavigne - Innocence-

Labels: internship

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Monday, September 21, 2009; 10:05 PM

Something Nice Back Home - Episode 5 "Simple Little Melody"

Home is time
when the day sounds like my favorite song ♥

when I tweeted wishful thinking and encouraging words
when I see others tweeted to make magical bonds
when I hold my 'shinny pager' everywhere so I don't have to talk
I don't talk, you wouldn't believe me anyway
I don't talk, you wouldn't like my words anyway
so I write ♥

when words mean so much
like few months after 9/11
when I wrote a poem about them,
the lost and heartbreak
It was my first poem after all
one of my best written words
It was when I knew I recognized details and made it works through words

Home ♥
is when everything appeared just as beautiful as I dreamed
wakes me up from sleep
when I'm going nowhere and just stand still
because I know my life isn't as lousy as I imagined

I know I have a wonderful tremendous journey
I walk down every rugged road with companions
and not just within hours I reach the finish line
Zillion times way longer than it looks

I walk the line because it is my own life ♥
not let anybody else takes over
I might meet strangers on the road I walk on
I'm sorry, if it sounds like I know you too well
But like it or not
You become a part of my journey, my own story, my life.

Thanks for guest-starring my life
You're my simple little melody
You matters as you complete the songs I wrote
My favorite songs ♥
You made my day
You build a home with me

♥ Jess/ 00.34 AM/ Surabaya/ Friday/ September 25, 2009 ♥

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Sunday, September 6, 2009; 12:05 PM

Something Nice Back Home - Episode 4 "Wake Me Up When September Ends"

I'm going home and these are my major plans

1. Working on my internship report and no procrastination
2.Blog, blackberry, ubertwitter autism. I seriously write a lot and I talk less.
3. Listening to Taylor Swift's Fearless over and over again. By that I mean memorizing all tracks' lyrics.
4. Watching Grey's Anatomy episodes (again): Elevator Love Letter, What a Difference a Day Makes, and Here's To The Future/ Now or Never
5. Watching few episodes of True Blood, Mad Men, 30 Rock, Saturday Night Live until dawn with salad and hot chocolate accompany me.
6. Watching the rest episodes of Damages and Fringe. God, I miss these shows.
7. Sleeping in my own bed
8. Editing the Kadal Family Bali Tour Project
9. Blackberry memory exchange. 1-2 GB. I just want to have a bigger space for all my favorite songs.
10. Eating mom's salad and bolognaise spaghetti + every food made by my sister
11. Waiting impatiently (like a fool) for Grey's Anatomy's Season 6 two hours premiere "Good Mourning/Goodbye"
12. Updating my Emmy Awards full winner list
13. Having a fun and serious talk with Ms. Desi and Valencia Leonata
14. Having fun with Vivi Angela, Levina Dianita, Agnes Olivia
15. Listening and updating to ♥ Autumn's Monologue ♥ the melancholic psychotic playlist
16. I need to know if I have a lot of beta amyloid in my brain because apparently I forget lots of things. It irritates me and affects me a lot at work. But how do I find out?
17. Buy few jackets for the unsurprisingly cold office
18. Reading newspaper everyday
19. Replacing a new me with the old one because the new me doesn't suit me. I need to keep up, think and work more rather than walk like a zombie who won't even care.
20. I want to feel blessed. I thankful for everything I have got.

There's so many plans awaits me at ♥ home ♥
Dear home, it feels odd not seeing u in past 7 weeks ♥
There's a lot of time I feel life is just like a blank sheet, but it doesn't anymore thinking I have home to come back to
*ubertwitter*

I'm going home. Back to the place where I belong.
And where your love has always been enough for me.
*Daughtry - Home*

so Wake Me Up When September Ends.
And I'll recharge myself as I always feel overjoyed to do something I've always dreamed of, I once fought and believed in. I want to believe I can count myself on.

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Something Nice Back Home - Episode 3 "I May Be Rude, But I'm The Truth"

Something Nice Back Home - Episode 3 "I May Be Rude, But I'm The Truth"

I miss home
Home is not always a place
Home is time
when I still had nerves to worry
when I still had guts to say the truth even if satan mocks
when I could say what I want
when I was not drooling like an idiot and not doing anything
because I was too lazy to get up
when I wasn't procrastinating
when I enjoy some thrill rides even it's scary
when I listened a song called "Anyway"
and I do everything anyway though no one cares

Home is time
when I provoked myself to know that I still can reach the end
when I kept breathing when it's 3.30 AM and I worked almost alone to finish everything
when I accept sorry and know the pain will not subside
because later I found out 3.74 almost worth it all
besides, God's grace rains on me
when I still had time to care about the future I always wanted
when boundaries made me walk on water

The distance are way too long
I'm away and be a different, different
My hands numb and the energy dies
Party ain't over yet, I'm in the euforia
I wonder, when this would end?
My chances are better than some of you
but I'm not wearing my best outfit to pass the interview
Oh, what a guilt

I'm not ready if world flips over
and I turn from Betty Suarez to Wil-HELL-mina Slater
You'll be surprised if I walk like zombies
because I once felt to tired to go on
Take me back home

Home is time
when no one understands
but I still do understand myself

Smells like home
Feels like home
The distance are way too long
I need to come back home
Help me go back home

Jess/ 11.49/ Jakarta / Sunday/ September 6, 2009

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The Constant

The Arrival

Dream A Little Dream Of Me

If it was meant to be it's meant to be

I am Jess ; ~~Dark and Twisty~~ bright and shinny 21 this year.
Waiting for the biggest day of my life to actually happen!
You say you're all dark and twisty. It's not a flaw, it's a strength. It makes you who you are. ~Derek Shepherd~ Educated in Somewhere in Indonesia
I Like: American TV Series
I Dislike: being left behind.
Jess is dark and twisty/ bright and shinny who had dreamed about her own refreshed poetic melancholy little smart world ♥

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